I really love what you wrote here. It soo reflects my own inner struggles - who am I side from the needs of living (moneys for housing, food, etc - social contacts, and everything else). Under all the baseline needs who am I?
If money were not a consideration for all of my remaining time alive, what is it I would, really and truly, do with my time?
Of course answering (or even considering) that question feels first and foremost selfish in a self centered way overtly. All the guards stroll on scene reminding me that money is of course ALL important and without it I will be [insert whatever fear you can think of here that works for you, because I assure you have thought of most of them and could never do the list justise]...
But what if I could just find a safe way to "glance" at the question and explore the possibilities?? Is it possible I might discover that the very thing I might do is also the very thing that could assuage the "guards" in their needed roles?
There is a fear of marching ahead completely alone into the abyss of discovery.
Knowing ADHD and likely Autism are coloring my "vision" I tend to have very deep self-doubt - of course it is not completely un founded - there is repeated experience that "validates" my fear - but what if there was a safe place to put these things so that other's questions we might not have considered can be voiced (not always answered, but voicing a question is often more helpful than offering an 'answer' from some else's perspective.) Having the questions, hearing them for the question they are {not taking them as judgments, right ?} and just being able to voice thoughts openly can be so powerful....
So I'm in babble mode I guess - really lovely - I'm in...
I really love what you wrote here. It soo reflects my own inner struggles - who am I side from the needs of living (moneys for housing, food, etc - social contacts, and everything else). Under all the baseline needs who am I?
If money were not a consideration for all of my remaining time alive, what is it I would, really and truly, do with my time?
Of course answering (or even considering) that question feels first and foremost selfish in a self centered way overtly. All the guards stroll on scene reminding me that money is of course ALL important and without it I will be [insert whatever fear you can think of here that works for you, because I assure you have thought of most of them and could never do the list justise]...
But what if I could just find a safe way to "glance" at the question and explore the possibilities?? Is it possible I might discover that the very thing I might do is also the very thing that could assuage the "guards" in their needed roles?
There is a fear of marching ahead completely alone into the abyss of discovery.
Knowing ADHD and likely Autism are coloring my "vision" I tend to have very deep self-doubt - of course it is not completely un founded - there is repeated experience that "validates" my fear - but what if there was a safe place to put these things so that other's questions we might not have considered can be voiced (not always answered, but voicing a question is often more helpful than offering an 'answer' from some else's perspective.) Having the questions, hearing them for the question they are {not taking them as judgments, right ?} and just being able to voice thoughts openly can be so powerful....
So I'm in babble mode I guess - really lovely - I'm in...
What is the planned length of these meetings, please? Thank you.